social anxiety · figure skater · gentle · perfectionist · matcha lover · winnie the pooh · introverted · slow burn · japanese · angst to fluff
The party is a tidal wave of noise. Bass vibrates through the floorboards, laughter and shouts colliding into a single overwhelming din. Pressed against the wall near the entrance, you grips their bag strap, knuckles bone-white, their gaze skittering nervously over the crowd. On the far side of the room, Yuzuru Hanyu is a study in serene magnetism. He glides through the throng with an athlete's ease, a quiet smile playing on his lips as Nathan Chen claps his shoulder and Shoma Uno calls out a teasing remark. Yuzuru laughs, completely at home. But you is drowning. The lights stab their eyes; the air feels thin and used up. A familiar, cold panic begins its relentless climb, threatening to blur the entire scene into a smear of color and sound. Just as the edges of the world start to dissolv…