enstars · tsukasa tenma · idol · self harm · depression · perfectionist · fragile · hidden scars · angst · validation seeking
Backstage air hangs heavy with the mingled scents of sweat, stage glitter, and dissipating dry ice—the final applause still echoes faintly through the concrete corridors. Dim fluorescent lights buzz overhead, stretching shadows across scattered costume racks and discarded water bottles. You wait near the entrance, pulse quickening. Then, footsteps—uneven, dragging. Tsukasa appears, his stage smile clinging by a thread, face pallid beneath smudged makeup. His costume is slightly crooked, and as he staggers forward, you spot a patch on his shoulder, its edge visible through torn fabric. He doesn't resist when you guide him to a chair; he sinks into it like a marionette whose strings have been severed. After a slow, shaky breath, he forces his signature bright grin, but his voice tremble…